Satu Sisi si Bajil (Lagi)

Duduk dilantai tanpa beralas apapun,
termenung menatap hari-hari yang telah berlalu.
Termenung disenja nan mendung,
berusaha melupakan hari-hari yang membebani,
dikala pintu hari esok terbentang dan terbuka lebar pada senja nan mendung ini.
Seyogyanya hidup akan lebih berarti tatkala ke-ego-an dikesampingkan,
ke-aku-an dipendam jauh kedalam tanah ditempat kita berpulang
Detak, detak jantung nan tiada berhenti,
sedetak dengan langkah seseorang yang meng-aku-kan dirinya terhadap hal yg disangka benar dalam hidupnya ini.
Lalu apa yang didapat jika hanyalah “disangka benar” ?
Kepuasan apa yang didapat jika hanyalah “disangka benar” ?
Tidak, semua itu hanyalah manifestasi seseorang terhadap orang lainnya !
Janganlah memandang satu jiwa dari kebodohannya,
Janganlah memandang satu jiwa dari apa yg belum diberikannya,
Janganlah memandang satu jiwa dari apa yg belum diperbuatnya,
Jangan, karena hal itu akan memenjarakan satu jiwa kedalam ceruk jurang yang dalam dan sempit.
Jiwa tersebut mengajarkan, bagaimana untuk bertindak dalam waktu yg sempit.
Jiwa tersebut mengajarkan, bagaimana untuk menentukan hal yang mustahil untuk dilakukan.
Jiwa tersebut mengajarkan, bagaimana melakukan titah Tuhannya.
Jiwa tersebut mengajarkan, janganlah merubah jiwa-mu kedalam hal yang sangat membodohi.
Jiwa tersebut mengajarkan, dampingilah kesedihan dan duka karena itu akan membuat semua jiwa menjadi lebih arif dan bijaksana dalam memandang hidup tanpa memandang rendah jiwa-jiwa yang lainnya.
Dan aku si bajil telah memutuskan dan memilih sekian lama untuk hidup berdampingan dengan kesedihan dan duka walaupun mereka telah memenjarakan jiwa ini ke dalam ceruk ketidak-adilan dan jurang yang dalam.

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I Love This Song

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me and then

Spin me around till I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure
I was loved

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again

When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way I would run from her to him
He’d make me laugh just to comfort me, yeah, yeah
Then finally make me do just what my mama said

Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he
Would be gone from me

If I could steal one final glance
One final step, one final dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
‘Cause I’d love, love, love to dance with my father
again

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear her, mama cryin’ for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me

I know I’m prayin’ for much too much
But could You send back the only man she loved
I know You don’t do it usually
But Dear Lord, she’s dyin’ to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep
And this is all I ever dream

Song by Luther Vandross – Dance With My Father

Note :
Honestly, this song reminds with My Mother.
Yes, how i missed to dance with my Mother, My Lovely Mother.
Let You know how i miss You,
Let You know how i depend on You.
Mom, shall we dance ?

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Somasi

Hey God..Tell me What The Hell is goin’ on
Seems like all the good shit’s gone
It keeps on getting harder hangin’ on
Hey God…There’s nights You know I want to scream
These days You’re even harder to believe
I know how busy You must be
I am not ask You about Heaven and Hell
I am not ask You about Luxury
I am not ask You about Incumbency
I am not ask You about a House and the other stuff
but Hey God…
I am just ask You about One Thing
Do You Believe in me…God ?
Most of all Dear God
Do you ever think about me ?
Do you ever listen to me ?
I would like to Scream now…
Even for once screaming
but i can`t
I know how busy You must be

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Ruh Suci

aku datang ke dalam dirimu
aku datang ke dalam hatimu
ke lembahmu dengan senja mengerjap
di antara pohon rindang
di antara duri tajam
di antara ratapan kehidupan
dimana ada harap terbentang

Duhai, Sang Jiwa Pemikat
di bening mata ada beriak lembut :
perjalanan yang tidak mudah
ada yang sulit diubah
kita memang keras kepala :
kasih dan sayang mungkin bencana
tapi rasa ini juga anugerah

Duhai, Sang Jiwa Yang Indah
aku datang merengkuhmu
aku datang memujamu
aku datang dengan berlutut dihadapan kebersahajaanmu
biarkan engkau juga menjangkauku
dalam lengkung alis matamu
dimana tubuh lelah yang berantakan
dimana tubuh letih karena tempaan kehidupan
dimana semua ini hanya dianggap mimpi
sejenak jiwa lelap dalam kasih dan sayang

lalu kita berkata :
segala yang mengerjap-ngerjap
bukanlah rindu yang cuma sekejap
tapi adalah rasa yang dititpkan Sang Ilahi

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Nyanyian Sang Jiwa

In the depth of my soul there is a wordless song
A song that lives in the seed of my heart.
It refuses to melt with ink on parchment;
It engulfs my affection in a transparent cloak
And flows but not upon my lips.

How can I sigh it?
I fear it may mingle with earthly ether;
To whom shall I sing it?
It dwells in the house of my soul,
In fear of harsh ears.

When I look into my inner eyes I see the shadow of its shadow;
When I touch my fingertips I feel its vibrations.

The deeds of my hands heed its presence as a lake must reflect the glittering stars;
My tears reveal it, as bright drops of dew reveal the secret of a withering rose.

It is a song composed by contemplation,
And published by silence,
And shunned by clamour,
And folded by truth,
And repeated by dreams,
And understood by love,
And hidden by awakening,
And sung by the soul.

It is the song of love;
What Cain or Esau could sing it?

It is more fragrant than jasmine;
What voice could enslave it?

It is heartbound, as a virgin’s secret;
What string could quiver it?

Who dares unite the roar of the sea
And the singing of the nightingale?
Who dares compare the shrieking tempest
To the sigh of an infant?
Who dares speak aloud the words
Intended for the heart to speak?
What human dares sing in voice
The song of God?

Chapter 22 – Kahlil Gibran

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It is Me…si Bajil

This face that’s on the outside
is just the face you see
The real me on the inside
is the one that’s really me
This face that’s on the outside
looks happy as can be
But the me that’s on the inside
is crying silently

This face that’s on the outside
doesn’t give a clue
Of the love that’s on the inside
longing so for you
But this face that’s on the outside
is the only one to be..
Until the day you love me
then the real me you will see

It is Me…Just call Me, si Bajil

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No Title !

I get so ANGRY BUT I KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT AND MORE PATIENT !!!

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Sang Ratu

There’s a princess crunching through my leaves!
See her blue-sky dress and her autumn leafy crown.
“I’m princess of the leaves!” she sings. “I think that you should know.”
So I shower her with red and orange and brown.
There beneath my branches of acorn nuts and beetles,
She laughs the purest laugh ever heard by tree or man
You’d never think a princess’ laugh could make an old oak grin-
But it can!

There’s a princess crunching through my leaves!
She smiles holding nothing back, her eyes aglow with wonder.
“I’m princess of the leaves!” she sings. “I think that you should know.”
So my branches sway for her while she looks on from under.
Did you know a princess’ gaze can make an old oak swell
And stand up tall just like the proudest tree that ever was,
And reach his arms out toward the sky for joy of being loved?
Well it does!

There’s a princess crunching through my leaves!
How luminous, how regal – how beautiful she seems.
“I’m princess of the leaves!” she sings. “I think that you should know.”
So my branches open wide and so the sunlight beams.
For he who knows the princess is a lucky scrap of timber.
She’ll warm the very sap beneath that crusty bark of his.
You wonder, “Is an oak tree such a sentimental soul?”
Yes he is!

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Indosat Borong Penghargaan di Bubu Awards (Masih Merah Putih-kah atau warna lain ?)

PT Indosat berjaya di Bubu Awards v.05 yang merupakan ajang penghargaan bagi situs tanah air. Tidak tanggung-tanggung, empat penghargaan berhasil diraih Indosat berkat situs www.m3-access.com pada malam penganugerahan yang berlangsung di Museum Nasional, Hari rabu malam.
PT. Indosat melalui websitenya yg beralamat di www.m3-access.com mendapatkan 4 gelar untuk beberapa kategori, yakni :

1. News&Entertainment Award
2. Best Content Award
3. Best Technology Award
4. Corporate Website of The Year


Tp masih terasa sakit karena apa yg telah dimiliki oleh bangsa ini harus dimiliki oleh orang lain yang sangat nyata telah menguasai beberapa industri telekomunikasi di negara ini…sungguh tragis !!!
Satu pertanyaan, “apalagi yang harus rela dimiliki oleh orang lain setelah ini semua ?”

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